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Did I ever say that I HATE THE SYSTEM!!!!!! ?

Yes, I am now officially depressed and pessimist and things are getting only worse.
I found out today that I could have the authorisation to work immediately if I want, but the sad thing is that no one wants me to work for them. What the hell am I supposed to do with an authorisation without a job? :(

I've been trying to get my time scedual the whole week now. Impossible. The Art section is - I'm sure - the slowest and most chaotic of the whole university. Not that I mind, I like them anyway. Hopefully tomorrow I'll become enlightened, not that it helps my situation...:(

The girl who's borrowing me her room wants to start using it herself as soon as possible and is now calling me all the time to find out how is my home-hunt going and when will I move out (boo-hoo-hoo, it will evidently never happen!) :(

Last week I had a meeting for a job, a good and well-payed job and all: accompanying little children during lunch. It wasn't at all like an interview or anything - they didn't ask for my motivations, they just explained me the basics. Told me they'd call on Monday. My phone still haven't rang. :_

Today I met a lady who is looking for an au pair for her two little daughters. It went very well. Until she told me that she met one other girl as well and she will decide with her husband.
So I'm still homeless and workless because let me tell you one thing: if there is a choice between me and someone else it will never be ME, the chosen one.
I have no luck.

I have no hope.

I have no optimism.

depressed

no! i'm not depressed, i'm just being realistic.

i have no job, i have no home.

i'll never make it because there's just too much of everything.

nobody reads my blog any more.

my red hair will soon become history.

i'm becoming a hobo-geek.

who cares?